“…so much pressure I can barely breathe. My demons branding me like Yellowstone. Mama ain’t here no more to pray for me. I’m surrounded by hate, fake fame, and greed. The dark days always seem to find a way. I’ve been dealing with pain, but keep a smile on my face….I keep on goin’, cause… Read more

The kids went back to school! They had a 2 hour late start. It was nice getting to sleep in a little longer, but I’m glad the weather has decided to cooperate. We can start getting back to “normal”, again. I ran some errands, this morning. The roads were all perfectly fine. It’s several degrees… Read more

“Made a little money, I ain’t never gonna changeStill drinking Jim Beam, still wear them dirty jeans. Get up every morning, ’cause them bills don’t go anyway. Got something to say, then bubba say it to my face….Times change people change but not me My hands on my heart ’cause these colors don’t bleed…This is… Read more

Groundhog Day, is one of my all time favorite movies! It’s starting to feel like that, here… They canceled school for today, yesterday evening. My kiddos are home, again. My son got his room looking much better! He arranged it so that it looks nice. Except, I can’t explain why he has the nightstand facing… Read more

We got notified, last night, there would be no school, today. We ended up with freezing rain. It left a decent amount of ice covering everything. Adam decided he would go into the office around 9:00am, this morning. I wished he wouldn’t, but he didn’t listen to me. I’ve been checking in on him. He… Read more

“I only talk to God when I need a favor. And I only pray when I ain’t got a prayer. So, tell me who the hell am I to expect a savior, if I only talk to God when I need a favor? But, God, I need a favor…” ~Jelly Roll I really do try… Read more

Tonight, we’re having fried chicken, mashed potatoes, with country gravy, and green bean casserole. Tomorrow, I’m planning to make some rotel dip and chips. You just take a couple cans of rotel, some cheese (I use velveeta), and brown ground beef or turkey seasoned with taco seasoning. Melt all those together. Serve with tortilla chips.… Read more

I’m told that “gen alpha”, is known as the “iPad babies” and for loving to play with “slime”. I can confirm. We have a big basket of slime and slime accessories, on top of our fridge. My kids have all the electronic devices. They do go out to play. They still jump on the trampoline,… Read more

My sister and her husband went out, for the first time since Pj came along. They’d asked us to babysit. Of course I said absolutely! They get a nice evening, as a couple. We get to hang out with baby Pj. Yesterday, we played cornhole, and Adam grilled us some burgers. Today has been a… Read more

“Hallelujah g*d damnit, can I get a amen. I been blessed by our country. Had to work to get the win. Had me kickin’ doors down. They ain’t wanna let us in. Hallelujah g*d damnit, can I get a amen…They say when one door closes, another one’s gon’ open. Foot to the deadbolt, leavin’ the… Read more

This is a very easy meal! Adam and the kids all enjoy it. All you need is, 1 pound ground beef (or turkey) Taco seasoning 2 pizza crusts (I buy the Pillsbury dough that you get in those cans and then roll out onto a pan) Pizza sauce Shredded cheddar cheese I make the pizza… Read more

I woke up, this morning, to my neck feeling so much better! A little sore, when I look up and down, but otherwise, I feel great! I was limited, in what I could do, yesterday. I’m happy to be able to do my “normal” things. I got breakfast dishes washed. Made beds. I cleaned the… Read more

Chris Webby has several installations of his “raw thoughts”. Not exactly child appropriate, but very good, nonetheless. In my personal opinion. I’m trying to allow myself to get “raw”. I’m feeling “heavy”, but I haven’t quite given myself permission to get a good look at the shadow that’s been following me around. I’m a grown… Read more

Y’all, I hit 100,000 views, on my blog, today. I didn’t start out intending to be seen or heard. I have continued to only write my story. I know some days are not the most interesting, but it’s my life. This blog has been like therapy, for me. It’s helped me to process and get… Read more

“Don’t tread on me. Those are words that I stand by homie. It doesn’t mean I’m gangster. It doesn’t mean I’m country. It means that my life is in my hands only”… “That’s dandy and fine if you trust Uncle Sam, but I for one, fuckin’ don’t”…. ~The Real Samson I’m so sick and tired… Read more

You’ll need: Soft tortillas (I use the large ones) Shredded cheese (I use “fiesta” or “taco” blends) Chicken breasts Fajita sauce (I buy it pre made, or in packets that you mix with water) Optional: chopped green peppers, red peppers, jalapeños, onions I boil the chicken breasts until they’re tender and come apart easily. Drain… Read more

I was having a rough afternoon, yesterday. I’m not prepared to get much into it, but it has to do with my mother. My mother and someone else who I love so fiercely. I’m struggling internally, with how to move forward, with this girl, now that she’s built a “relationship” with my mother. I cannot… Read more

Jackie was given a survey, from the shipping company, where we returned the items she had, very cheaply, purchased. The first question was, What was your reason for visiting our store today? I told her to put down, Returning stolen goods. 😆💁‍♀️ It’s just in my nature to be a smart ass. I have a… Read more

I neglected to mention something that happened, Friday night. We went to bed around 10:30, because Adam had to work Saturday morning. As we were brushing our teeth, Adam said something to me. I can’t remember what. I wasn’t seriously angry. I replied, “you can fuck right off.” Adam reached over, and smacked my ass.… Read more

Someone requested that I share some desert recipes. This is a very popular one, here! You’ll need: Unbaked pie crust 1 Cup granulated sugar 1 Cup brown sugar Pinch of salt 2 Tbs flour 5 eggs 2/3 Cup buttermilk 1/2 Cup unsalted butter 1 tsp. vanilla extract Preheat oven to 350. Mix sugars, salt, and… Read more

Jackie and I had a blast, yesterday! She took me to this local place that has a “rage room”. We got to use bats and crowbars to smash bottles, TVs, boards. We had 20 minutes to “rage”. It was really really fun! Adam and Justin grilled their marinated ribs and a few steaks. I had… Read more

There’s an interesting dichotomy, to my relationship, with Adam. On one hand, I do get very turned on, when he slaps my ass. I love the random smacks across my backside. When it comes to a serious spanking, I don’t enjoy it. It isn’t that I don’t appreciate it. I wouldn’t say that I want… Read more

Jackie and I are getting ready to go out with our guys. Adam said he might be a little later than planned. He said we might need a snack. I sent him a picture of a Bud Light and told him, we found snacks…😆

“They say love is more precious than gold. It can’t be bought, and it can’t be sold. I got love, and love to spare. That makes me a millionaire…” ~Chris Stapleton Adam and I are going out to eat with Jackie and Justin (new guy), tonight. When we get back home, Justin and Adam are… Read more

This song is by “Panic at the Disco”. Jackie and I use this song to describe our youth, together 😆 We have known each other for about 20 years. There’s a lot of stories to tell. We’ve had so much fun. We’ve found some trouble. We’ve had some rough times. We’ve always found our way… Read more

I’m pretty sure the way I make these, is very typical. I just put about 1 cup of flour into a mixing bowl. Mix in some salt and pepper with the flour. Cover each of the cube steaks in the flour mixture. Fry them in a pan with oil over medium high heat, just browning… Read more

The other night, after the spanking was over and it was time for Adam and I to take a shower, I got just a little sassy. I rolled my eyes. Adam didn’t appreciate it. He gave me one quick smack, on my ass, and told me I can answer him with yes and no sir,… Read more

Jackie and I did something incredibly stupid. Last Friday, Jackie was informed that the account she handles is being transferred to another country, to save the company money. She was salty about it. They sell some expensive ass shit, and she had the ability to give out discounts and free shipping. She had something she’s… Read more

This title is a Tom MacDonald song 🙂 Adam made it home at 5:25pm, last night! We had so much more time together. Our evening wasn’t rushed. I love it! I shared my post, from yesterday morning, with Adam. He was sitting on the couch, and I was in the kitchen, when I sent it.… Read more

“Slow down, you crazy child, take the phone off the hook and disappear for awhile. It’s alright, you can afford to lose a day or two…..Slow down, you’re doin’ fine, you can’t be everything you wanna be before your time…..You know you see when you’re wrong, you can’t always see when you’re right….Dream on, but… Read more

“You’ll know him when you see him by the way he looks at me. You’d say he hung the moon, I’d say he hung the galaxy….A love me like he should one. Like he wrote the book one. The kind you find when you don’t even look one. Anybody can be good once, but he’s… Read more

(This is a Seth Anthony song.) I can pretty much find a song title that I love, to use as a title on any blog post, that suits me. Today, “Reckless” seemed appropriate. I used to care a whole lot less about my tomorrows. I could be wild and stupid. I’ve cliff jumped, in a… Read more

I got supper started, as soon as my son and I got home. I like to let my chili soup simmer, for a few hours. I don’t make mine very spicy, like some folks do. It’s the recipe my family made, for generations, though. 1-2 pounds of ground beef or turkey. You can also add… Read more

That’s a song by “Bug Smo”. We made an old TikTok of Adam, with this song playing in the background, during the Covid madness. He was playing with our kids and their toy trucks, on a play mat of pretend highways. It was pretty cute! We teased that he missed his job 😆 Adam is… Read more

This is an easy supper! I have lots of potatoes left, so I’m peeling and slicing potatoes to use for tonight’s supper. All you need is 4-6 medium/large potatoes (I just have the plain ol’ Russet Idaho potatoes) Diced ham About 1/3 of a 32oz box of velveeta cheese. For my non American friends, I… Read more

(This title is a Christian song, by “Stars Go Dim” 😉 I shared my last post with Jackie. This was some of our text messages, after. This morning, as I waited in the pharmacy drive thru, I got a random text from my Dad. I’m not alone. There are great people, who truly care for… Read more

~ “If you just walked away, what could I really say? And would it matter anyway? Would it change how you feel?”…. “I am the mess you chose. The closet you cannot close. The devil in you I suppose, because the wounds never heal.”… “But everything changes, if I could turn back the years, if… Read more

My family love when I make my meatballs for supper. I’m not a big measurer. I kind of just throw things together, but I’ll do my best to guesstimate the amounts here! 2 pounds ground beef or turkey 1 cup breadcrumbs 1/2 cup of milk 1 egg BBQ sauce (our favorite is “Sweet Baby Rays”)… Read more

Yesterday evening, I was talking to Adam. He was heading home from work, and I told him I needed to call the billing department at our daughter’s doctor’s office tomorrow. Several weeks ago, I’d gotten a bill claiming we owed money for her visit’s copay. I knew I’d paid her copay. I always do, before… Read more

One of my husband’s old friends had a wife from Nebraska. She made this casserole she called “Runza Casserole”. It’s named after a restaurant chain only in Nebraska, or maybe some surrounding states? They have vendors who sell Runzas at the Nebraska Huskers home games, too. Anyway, it’s really good! Brown 2 pounds ground beef… Read more

Have you ever seen the Real Housewives series? I used to watch Real Housewives of Orange County. I have watched some others, but not very often. I used to like Gretchen, from old RHOC episodes. Most of those middle aged bitches drove me nuts, though! The most self centered, egotistical, fake women. They waste so… Read more

1 pound ground beef or turkey 1 1/2 cups ketchup 1 tablespoon worstershire sauce 2 tablespoons brown sugar 1/4 teaspoon salt 1/4 teaspoon pepper Brown ground beef/turkey. Stir in remaining ingredients. Cook over medium low heat, stirring occasionally for 10-30 minutes. (I double, even triple this recipe for my family). I got this recipe from… Read more

It wasn’t the weekend I’d expected. Friday afternoon, our son had a wrestling competition. He got hurt. There was concern he might have broken a rib, at one point. They determined that he was fine, just had gotten the wind knocked out of him. Then, his last match, he hurt his elbow. This time, he… Read more

Last night, when Adam got home, he picked me up and threw me over his shoulder. Then he gave my behind a slap, and spun around in circles, while we both giggled. Not only will he be transferring to the office close to our house, he’ll also be making a significant amount more. I’m sooo… Read more

We bought plane tickets, this week, for a couple of our family members to come down here. They’ll be here this coming weekend. It was a last minute thing, but Adam was all for it. I know I’ve mentioned this before, I’m a saver. I budget and I put away as much money as I… Read more