Any Man of Mine

~Shania Twain

I woke up at 3:30am, Friday morning. My alarm was set for 3:34, but I actually woke up just before it had a chance to go off. I have always had a “thing”, about setting alarms for random times. If I need to be up at 5:00, I’ll set it for 4:59, or 5:01. It drives Jackie crazy that I do that! 😆

I made myself some coffee, and headed over to Justin and Jackie’s place. We loaded their bags in my car, and headed toward the airport. Jackie had to grab a quick picture, or her and I, right before they went inside. I looked a mess! No makeup on, my hair was not done, and I had my glasses on. Even so, I’m always glad for her picture memories.

Adam had left, for work, just a few minutes before I got back home. It was only 5:00am, and I’d intended to go back to sleep for awhile, but I was wide awake. Instead, I made myself some more coffee, and watched the sun rise over my backyard. I wound up getting a whole lot of housework done, yesterday. I cleaned all the floors, bathrooms, kitchen, and Adam and my bedroom. I dusted around the ceilings of every room, and down into the garage. I swept the garage steps. My sister came by, with Pj, for awhile. I chatted with her, and played with the baby. After they’d gone, I took Mj over to Justin and Jackie’s place. She’s been “hired” to look after their cat, Oakley. She cleans the litter box, refills the food and water bowls, and spends a little time loving on Oaks. They’d set up a “scavenger hunt”, for Mj. There’s a separate envelope, with a card inside, for everyday they’re gone. Mj is to open one, each day. She follows their clue, to find money they’d hidden somewhere. I thought that was the sweetest idea! Jackie is so creative!

I took Mj to a convenience store, where she spent most of her first $5 on treats. Last night, her brother and her played online games, in the upstairs office area, and ate her newly purchased snacks. Adam and I sat in the basement, and watched old episodes of the “Roseanne” show. The first season is my very favorite. After the third season, I never thought it was as good. Those first few, though, they’re iconic! It was a lot of fun, just snuggling my husband, while we laughed as we watched one of my favorite TV shows. Adam was getting sleepy, but I was still wide awake. Around 11:30pm, we compromised. I told him I’d go to bed, once the episode we were watching was over. I turned the TV off, as Adam began to shut off the lights. We went upstairs, and turned off all the lights on the main floor. Then, we went upstairs, to the kids bedrooms, and told them good night. Oliver went straight into his kennel. He was ready for bed, too. Diesel hopped up on our bed. We brushed our teeth, and I changed into one of Adam’s t-shirts. When we finally got settled, in our bed, I asked Adam if he was sleepy. He said that he was, but that he wanted his wife. He kissed and made love to me in such a passionate way. He’s been doing this, all week. It’s a hard thing to describe, in words. But, anytime his hands touch my body, I can literally feel this deep, pure love, radiating from him. I’ve never really doubted his love for me. It’s almost like he’s just expressing his desire for connection, and making absolutely certain that I know it. I have never been loved the way he loves me. I know I’ve got a lot of family and friends, who also love and care for me. The bond Adam and I share, is one that can’t exist anywhere outside of the two of us.

I spoke to Adam’s mom, about what’s going on here. I explained, it’s probably nothing to get worked up about. I don’t want her to worry, about me. I asked her to please check in, with Adam. I worry, about him. He’s lost several very close people, to cancer. I know how tough he is, and how good he can be, at holding in his own pain. I need to know that he has someone who’s there for him, too. His mom is seriously the best mother in law, ever! We talked, for well over an hour. She thanked me, for telling her all of this. She, like everyone, asked me to keep her posted. I asked her, to help me make sure Adam is okay. He’s not going to share his worries, or emotions, with me. Not right now. So, I know he will appreciate having his mom available, if he needs to “vent”. I love him, so much. I appreciate him. I respect him. I want to be a place he can always come to, when he’s needing someone. The same as he always is, for me. Adam’s my safe place. Nothing bad is going to happen, when I’ve got him. I might not be as big and tough, as he is, but I do feel that same devotion, toward him. Nobody will get away with messing with my man, as long as I’m around!

Both of my boys just came inside, from cutting the grass. They did a great job. I’m going to go hop in the shower, with my husband.