~SMO

Y’all…I’ve got so many projects going, right now! Wyatt stayed home sick Monday and Tuesday. He’s finally back in school, today. I’ve been working on some wood crafts.

I’m also going to be making, and selling/gifting, more decorative signs. I’ve got several round ones, like I used for Jackie’s. I want to buy some other sizes and shapes of unfinished wood. I’d like to make some porch lean signs, too. I’m making Fall themed ones, and going to start on Winter/Christmas ones, to get ahead of the season. I have lots of seasonal stencils, and paints, so I’m excited to play around with these ideas I’ve got rolling around inside my head!

Besides all my crafting, I have been getting ready to make my first podcast episode. I didn’t even have any headphones, microphones, laptop, mouse… I have my iPad, and a wireless keyboard. I ordered headphones, with built in microphones, and a Bluetooth mouse. I’ve designated a spot in the basement, for a small table and a couple of chairs, so there’ll be a comfy place to do this with as little distraction as possible. If anyone has suggestions for things you’d like me to talk about, please share them! I’m not a shy person, and I rarely have nothing to say, but it feels a little silly to me, just talking to myself. I do plan to have Jackie and Adam be part of some podcasts too, though.

Jackie’s coming over, later. We’re going to a few stores, for my craft supplies. We also love to shop around secondhand places, and find things to restore or repurpose. It’s about to be September! I need to start getting busy with Christmas gift ideas. I enjoy making things for my people. I’ve made candles, soaps, ornaments. I’ve had the kids paint coffee mugs and tea towels, to give to family. It’s a lot of fun, coming up with something special and unique, that I can do for somebody.

Adam and I are great. He commented, last night, about how good I’ve been. 😊 He’s looking so fine, these days. I’m crazy about how sexy his neck, shoulders, and arms are. I love running my hands down his neck, and wrapping them around his upper arms. Well, as much as I can wrap them around his arms. My fingers don’t actually stretch that far.

Jackie just texted me. She’s up and about. I guess I should go get myself dressed and ready to go. I was getting distracted and horny, writing about my sexy husband, anyway.

~John Cougar Mellencamp

Although I haven’t posted in a couple days, I have been working on something that I’m excited to get up and running on here! I’m getting very close to having it ready to share with y’all.

We went to Jackie’s pool, Friday, as soon as the kids got home from school. It was her birthday, so we swam and hung out there for hours. It was a lot of fun!

Justin and Jackie flew to attend a Jellyroll concert, yesterday. It looked like a lot of fun, too! My sister and I are also going to be meeting Justin in a couple weeks, to help him pick out Jackie’s engagement ring!!!

Adam, the kids, and I stayed home and watched movies last night. The heatwave finally ended, yesterday evening. We got a good thunderstorm with lots of rain. Today, I’ve been crafting. I have a couple of different things I’m creating. I’m fixing “breakfast” for supper, tonight. Pancakes, scrambled eggs, hash browns, sausage, and bacon.

It’s been a very relaxed weekend, with no trouble found. Wyatt’s not feeling very well. I had gotten a summer cold, last week. Mj got it, next. Today, it made its way to Wyatt. Poor kid’s been sleeping most of the day.

My family is (not so) patiently waiting for me to get supper started. So, I suppose I should get busy. I still need to pack lunches for Adam and the kids, too.

Which was never good anyway…

~Lorrie Morgan

To be honest, it hasn’t been a terrible Monday. However, I did get busted for putting off something I needed to get done. Adam discovered my procrastination, this afternoon.

I was downstairs. I’d washed and hung out all the bedding, to dry. When it was done, I went to make all the beds. Adam got home from work, just as I was making the one in our guest room. Our basement camera caught this embarrassing (for me) moment.

Just thought, since our camera had recorded this little piece of rare footage, I’d go ahead and share it here. After all, it is a pretty typical glimpse into the moments before a spanking, at least at our house.

~Uncle Lucius

We went for a drive in “The General”. It’s their 4 seat side by side ATV. I’m helping my brother in law make some sweet corn and sides, for supper. Adam’s grilling the steaks, while he finishes the brisket on the smoker. What a freakin’ FUN day!

My papa taught me how to work and Lord, he was mean
Working all day in that August heat
He taught me how to fish
My uncle taught me how to drink

~Chayce Beckham

My taste in music is literally all over the place 😆

We left for our trip, Saturday morning. We got here around 5:30, last night. Adam’s mom had made BLTs for us. I took a quick shower, and then we went fishing. Wyatt and Adam each caught a fish. After that, the kids went back to Grandma’s house (Adam’s mom’s), and we went into the family’s shop. Adam’s brother, and a couple friends of theirs came over. We all played pool, talked, and had a few drinks. We’re heading out to do some target practicing, with some guns. This evening, there’s a local parade. They had a car show, and then there’s a parade down Main Street. We’re taking the kids to watch. Plus, they’ll get a ton of candy thrown out to them. So, that’s fun 😊

This week, Adam will be helping his brother with their family business. He’ll be working hard. Adam’s mom took this coming week off work, so we’re going to be hanging out with the kids. My niece and nephew are here. Mj and Wyatt are super close to them. They always have a blast! The boys camped out, in a tent, last night. The girls slept inside. We’re here through this entire next week. We’ll leave for home, around 8:00am, next Saturday.

I’m having a real nice little “vacation”, here with Adam and his family. They’re good people, and they’re all so happy we’re here.

The night before we left, Adam and I were brushing our teeth. I started to roll my eyes at him. I truly didn’t mean to! I caught myself, and stopped halfway through. Adam caught it too, though. He gave me a few stinging swats, but I could tell he wasn’t really upset with me. He said he didn’t want my butt to hurt, when we were fixing to spend an entire day in the car. Besides this little “slip”, we’ve had no troubles.

When we got back, after our fun at the shop, Adam and I told the kids goodnight, and went to our room. We made love, and went to sleep. I woke up, about an hour later, to Adam removing my panties again. We had another “round”, and slept until 9:00am, this morning! I asked him, what brought that on? He said that, he loves the way I love to be a part of his family. He told me, he likes to “show me off”, and that it’s sexy, that I’m down to go do whatever it is they want to, while we’re visiting them. I really do love his family, and friends.

I’m removing the American flag design I’d painted on my toenails, a few weeks ago. I’m putting a different color on them. I’ve got my short overalls on, and my hair tied into a half updo. I’m ready to go shoot a bunch of guns, and spend some more time immersed into Adam’s world, here.

May God bless and keep you always
May your wishes all come true
May you always do for others
And let others do for you
May you build a ladder to the stars
And climb on every rung
May you stay forever young

May you grow up to be righteous
May you grow up to be true
May you always know the truth
And see the lights surrounding you
May you always be courageous
Stand upright and be strong
May you stay forever young

May your hands always be busy
May your feet always be swift
May you have a strong foundation
When the winds of changes shift
May your heart always be joyful
May your song always be sung
May you stay forever young

~Audra Mae & The Forest Rangers

Adam and I spent yesterday evening arguing through text messages. Our son had his “girlfriend” over here, yesterday afternoon and evening. While I was fixing supper, they had gone and asked Adam if they could go on a walk. When he got back home, I saw his neck looked like he’d survived a vampire attack… Hickeys covered his neck. Adam and I talked about it, and he informed me, he’d seen these hickeys on our son, before they’d even gone on their little “walk”. My frustration boiled over. I went and ran myself a hot bath. Then, I began to send Adam some angry texts. As you’ll see, I didn’t exactly hold my opinions in.

Wyatt hadn’t ever gotten physical, with a girl. He hadn’t even kissed anyone, in any real way. He’s moving way too fast, and I’m not liking it one bit. I also feel frustrated as hell, that Adam seems to have this double standard, between our girls and boy. He would FLIP OUT, if that had been a daughter, instead of his son. When we went to bed, we continued a long conversation about all of this. Wyatt’s much too young to be thinking about sex. It absolutely terrifies me. I just want my babies to get a chance to live out their entire childhoods. I didn’t get to do that. It’s been one of the most important things I’ve aimed to give my children. I understand, they have to grow. I don’t want them to have to grow up, any sooner than they should, though. He’s barely a teenager. There’s still plenty of growing and maturing to be done.

This morning, Wyatt asked me if his girlfriend could come over. I told him, not today. Shortly after, I received a couple of text messages from him.

This parenting stuff isn’t for the weak! I love my babies so much. I desperately want to do the right and best things for them, always. We’ve had rules, about friends the kids have over. They’re not to close their door, when someone else is over. They’re not to have anyone over, unless Adam or I are home. I have their locations, on my phone. I’m trying to navigate this line, between giving them space to learn and even to make mistakes, but not allowing them to go too far. It’s my job to keep them safe.

We’re heading over to swim at Poppy’s, here soon. Wyatt, Mj, and me. Poppy will be there, too. I’m making shepherd’s pie, for supper tonight. I already cooked the ground beef, and I’m going to get the casserole ready to go, before we leave. This way, I can take it out of our fridge, and put it right into the oven, when we get back home from swimming.

I’m feeling nostalgic, for when my kids were little. It was so much easier to protect them.

My parents brought me up to treat everyone as an equal
I refuse to feel ashamed ’cause of my pretty blue eyes
Fuck a Nazi, fuck a white supremacist
Fuck anyone who labels me as that because of my family genetics

I’m not the white devil, neo-Nazi, cop tryna pull the trigger
You can call me what you want but I’d still never say
The white race as a whole ain’t the enemy
There’s racist white people but we’re far from that collectively

White boy, white noise
Sayin’ shit I can’t say with my white voice
White boys, white lies
Don’t tell me how to see it through my white eyes

White people that you hate aren’t your neighbors or lawyers
They’re the Rockafellers, Rothschilds, Bushes, and royals
They’re the people who monopolize the water and oil
And injected your communities with drugs ’til they spoil
Got no patience for Nazis, I think they’re better off dead
They’re fighting hatred with hatred makin’ the hate more intense
I don’t want nothing to do with either side of the fence

Bein’ white and bein’ racist aren’t the same man, I promise
Know it’s hard to tell the difference if I’m just being honest
I deserve the chance to show you I’m not part of the problem
And you owe it to yourselves, we got so much in common

~Tom Macdonald

A couple months ago, a neighborhood near us woke up to discover flyers on their doors, the “KKK” had left them. It’s sickening, to know that kind of hatred exists so near us. I’ve never claimed that racism isn’t a thing. I see it, too. My husband’s best friend is Hispanic. We have a lot of Egyptian American friends. My daughter, Mj’s, best friend is Native American. Mikayla and Wyatt have friends of many different races, ethnicities, and sexualities. We welcome all of our friends into our home. It scared me, when those flyers were put up so close to us. It’s scary, because those assholes who hide behind hoods, certainly wouldn’t find me to be any ally of theirs. It’s terrifying, for our friends. I’m afraid to let my teenager’s black male friend walk home alone, after dark. It shouldn’t be that way! It’s wrong. I have absolute compassion for the people who experience this kind of hatred, just because of the way they exist in our world. For how they look, speak, dress, or love. I promise to never stop challenging discrimination. My only ask, is for the same things I give to everyone I meet. I am who I am. I look how I look. I’m a Christian. I’m in a very “traditional” marriage. I’m outspoken as hell. I’m always open to opinions and conversation. My mind has been changed. I’ve never came from a place of hate or any desire to hurt others. Even if I say something that might be offensive to someone, that’s never my intention. It’s impossible to be someone who everyone agrees with. I’d never expect that. I am me. Imperfect and sometimes very wrong. I won’t be ashamed of my own immutable characteristics, though. I can be proud of my heritage, my parents and grandparents, and their struggles that got me where I am today. I won’t hide my identity. And, I won’t ever insist that anyone else hide who they are. Whether I understand it, or not. I’m always willing to listen. Not every conversation is going to end with us being best friends, but I will show respect. That word, respect, isn’t shameful. The action, showing respect, is something everyone should receive. Giving respect nearly always results in you getting it back. There is hate filled crap that hate filled folks say and do. I’ll never be on their side. My skin tone, my Southern accent, and my religion are not what makes me good or bad. We can’t know who each other is, until we ask them.

Love, Me.

On another, completely unrelated note, my doctor’s orders for investigating this suspicious lump in my boob, got messed up. They needed a “diagnostic mammogram and ultrasound” to be ordered, and I guess that wasn’t how it was sent. So, I contacted my doctor, and he told me he’d send in what they needed. I haven’t heard back, yet. Adam wants me to call again, today. I was going to wait until tomorrow, but I suppose it wouldn’t hurt anything, if I go ahead and reach out again? So, that’s where I’m at, with that…

Got a gun that my granddad gave me
They say one day they’re gonna round up
Well, that shit might fly in the city, good luck

Try that in a small town
See how far ya make it down the road
Around here, we take care of our own
You cross that line, it won’t take long
For you to find out, I recommend you don’t
Try that in a small town

~Jason Aldean

This song has become very controversial, here in America, since the release of the music video. None of my black friends have felt this was made to express any discrimination, though. It really is more of a culture thing. By culture, I only mean where you grow up. Being brought up in some parts of the country, you are raised in different ways. That creates variation in how folks view lots of issues. Most everyone can agree, there are common issues, we all look to find solutions for. Most of our disagreement, is in how we should go about doing that. Gun violence is a problem. Nobody wants to worry about sending their children to school, going to church, or to the mall. I’m not going to preach my own beliefs, on right and wrong ways to make us safer. It is a shared concern, though. Most of us also can relate to the love and support people have for their towns and cities. For our community. When you grow up going to a school your parents attended, being taught by some of their old teachers, it’s something special. Everyone goes to a local ice cream place, after Friday night football games. A shop that’s ran by generations of family, who’ve worked to make their small business succeed. A place where your neighbors all know who you are. The cops weren’t called, when we got busted having a party in someone’s field. Our parents were, and that was way more terrifying, as a kid! I realize, there are many different places to grow up in. Not every person has those same memories. I think most of us look at where we’re from, and have a deep appreciation for it, though. To me, that’s what Jason’s song meant. Don’t threaten my community. We care about one another. That, to me, should be something all people, of all backgrounds, can relate to? Maybe I’m just biased, because of my own upbringing? I share the sentiment, about looking after my town, and the people who live in it.

Last night, I made the supper Mikayla requested. She’d asked for meatloaf, mashed potatoes with brown gravy, and my lemon pepper green beans. She didn’t get home, until after 8:00pm. So, we didn’t eat supper until much later than usual. She’s either practicing color guard, hanging out with her friends, or at work, most everyday, and into the evenings. Wyatt and Mj are just hanging out at home, with me. Wyatt went through his clothes, and we got a big bag of them to donate. He organized his closet, and folded all of his clean clothes nicely. He cleaned his room up, real good! Now it’s Mj’s turn. I’m going to help her go through her dresser drawers, and closet. We’ll start packing, for our trip, too. Mikayla is staying home, while we go to Kansas. She’s got a camp to go to, and didn’t want to miss work. Kansas is pretty boring, for her, anyhow. I’ll miss her. Her and I really do talk everyday. She tells me most everything. We don’t keep secrets. I can’t say that I did everything right, in raising her, but she turned out pretty damn great. I like to think I’ve done more right, than wrong. She’s told me, she would like to change her last name, after she turned 18. She wants to surprise Adam, and take his last name. I never suggested anything like that. She came up with that idea, all on her own. I support her, whatever she decides to do. She has a relationship with my ex (her bio dad’s) parents. They’re elderly, but they’re good people. Even when her dad wasn’t participating in her life, I always allowed them to. She spent some weekends, with them. They were invited to her school events, and birthday parties. Mikayla sent me a text, late last night, that said SOS. That’s our code. It means, call me. She was up in her bedroom, so I just ran up there. She was on the phone, and gave me a look that told me exactly what I needed to do. So, I called her phone, from my own, while I stood just outside of her room. I heard her excuse herself from the phone call she’d been on. She opened her door, and had great big tears in her eyes. She told me she’d asked her dad about how his trip in Germany was, and for some reason, that angered him. She said he’d yelled at her, because his girlfriend recently broke up with him, and he blames Mikayla for this. His girlfriend was cruel to Mikayla. Mikayla had chosen not to speak to, or visit, her father, for the majority of the last few years. They’d established a somewhat stable relationship, when Mikayla was around ten years old. Unfortunately, that was short lived. Her father had also completely neglected (or forgotten?) to wish her a Happy 18th Birthday. My heart breaks for her. It’s literal torture, seeing my sweet girl feel so unwanted, by someone who should think she’s the greatest thing to ever exist. Well, Adam and I see her. Things, like what happened last night, absolutely piss Adam off. If my ex was close by, I’d be afraid of what Adam might do. It makes me angry, but mostly sad. I hurt for Mikayla. There are many examples of situations like this, I could share. That’s not an isolated event, with her father. He’s a selfish, narcissistic (and I don’t say that lightly), bully. I honestly don’t think he’s capable of loving anyone, in any real sense. People are commodities. They’re tools to be used, to get him where he wants to go. To make an already long story short, this is one of the reasons why Mikayla has chosen to refer to Adam as “Dad”. Why she’s longed to share his family name. I’m so grateful to have been able to give her a man who has treated her like a daddy should treat his daughter. I’m so thankful for my husband. He never shows any favoritism, with our kids. He has one of the kindest hearts of anyone I’ve ever known. ❤️

I suppose I’ll go try to motivate Mj to get to work on her bedroom organization project.