Prayed For You

I’ve never been one to ask for help
If I need a mountain moved, I move it myself
I ain’t the church pew regular, twice on Sunday
Quote you the scripture kind
I’m far from a preacher
But I’m a believer

‘Cause every single day, before I knew your name
I couldn’t see your face, but I prayed for you
Every heartbreak trail when all hope failed
On the highway to hell, I prayed for you
I kept my faith like that old King James
Said I’m supposed to
It’s hard to imagine, bigger than I could fathom
I didn’t know you from Adam, but I prayed for you

For someone to love me like you do
Graceful eyes to see me through
A smile that steals me, a heart that heals me
A touch that kills me too
Baby you’re perfect, I guess the good Lord heard it

Listening to music, and this song came on. It makes me think of Adam. It also makes me think of Jackie, with Justin. I truly hope that she can let him “in”, because he is the best man I’ve ever seen her with. There’s no question about that. I’ve had many conversations with her about “self sabotage”. I can see her doing it. I’ve been calling her out on it, though. I’m not saying she has to marry Justin, just because we like him. I would hate for her to throw him away, with absolutely NO good reason to do so. I swear, so many people just can’t understand how much work and dedication relationships actually take. Nobody’s perfect! It’s about finding the one who can give you all the things you need. You can’t build trust and security overnight. You can’t expect someone to always know how to do things the right way, for you, either. Learn from one another. Teach each other. Grow together. That’s what makes a relationship work.

I didn’t even get to have Valentine’s Day sex, last night… These antibiotics are messing with my “self cleaning oven” (vagina). I had to get some other medicine to fix that, now. Adam and I still talked, laughed, and snuggled together. He left me the sweetest note, on Valentine’s Day. I found it on the kitchen counter. I would certainly not call Adam a “romantic” type of guy. He doesn’t typically do big, over the top, gestures of love. What he does do, is consistently be here for me. He always comes home. He always works hard for us. He never leaves me alone to figure out a problem or challenge. He knows that I buy the things I need and want, and he’s fine with it. If I mention something I’d like, he doesn’t care to make me wait for a birthday or holiday. He tells me to go get it. I’d rather have this guy, every single day, than a big bouquet of roses, or a diamond necklace, because it’s Valentine’s Day. He has randomly brought home flowers, for no particular reason. He brings me home my favorite candy bar, sometimes. Just because. Just because he thought of me. I love getting a thoughtful candy bar, on some random Tuesday, simply because he was thinking of me. His note, yesterday morning, meant more to me than any gift money could buy.

This morning, I watched the sunrise from my kitchen window. I enjoyed my coffee, and soaked in a moment of quiet, before I woke up the kids for school. It was mid 60s out, by 6:00am. The birds were singing. I opened the deck door and some windows. It’s mid 70s out now. There’s a cold front coming in late tonight, and bringing rain and thunderstorms along with it. I’m just making the most of this beautiful day. I pulled some weeds and dead flowers from my front flower beds, and around the mailbox. I played fetch with our dogs. I had swept and mopped the kitchen, yesterday, but Jackie’s one year old niece was here. I gave her one of the cookies I’d baked. Naturally, crumbs were everywhere. So, I’m going to sweep and mop again. I need to make the pasta salad that we’re going to have with supper. I was going to make it this weekend, but ended up making mac and cheese, instead. Adam’s grilling us chicken, with Sweet Baby Rays wing sauce. That’s my very favorite! I’m going to also make my chili potatoes. I just slice some potatoes and spread them in a casserole dish. Mix with a lot of butter, chopped onion, and chili powder. Everybody here really likes them.

I guess that’s about all I have, for today! I’m going to get back to enjoying this perfect Spring-like day. 😊