Trouble Tuesday

The back of his thigh is bruised from when Jackie smacked him with his belt last weekend. He was saying that I hurt him more than the belt could ever hurt me.

Why is it so hard to make it through a Tuesday without having one of these conversations with Adam and then getting my butt whipped?? I could not even sleep on my back last night. Adam actually got tears out of me and everything. Not sobbing, uncontrollable crying with snot and tears that won’t stop. But, I couldn’t hold back a few tears that escaped and ran down my face. I had chosen to avoid including Adam in a financial decision I made. I move money around and plan and organize constantly. He honestly does back me almost always when I want to do that. I don’t know why I didn’t say anything to him, except that I just didn’t feel like talking about it that night when I’d made that decision. I was grumpy and hormonal and I said something snarky and went to sleep with my back to Adam. I didn’t quite cross the line with him that night, but it was darned close. Then, yesterday morning, it dawned on me that I was likely getting a guilty conscience before I even realized or accepted that I’d done something wrong. That’s probably why I was so cranky. So, I told him. I laid it all out. He told me that he was most hurt that I’d let him go to sleep thinking he had done something or said something wrong. He went to bed feeling guilty for my upset. Ugh. That made me feel awful. I’ll write tomorrow about what happened after Adam got home last night. Suffice it to say, I have a serious ache in my behind today.

4 thoughts on “Trouble Tuesday

  1. Eve, life is a journey, we learn form the past, hopefully. It is always better to get it out in the open, so there are no misunderstandings, Adam loves you so be truthful and tell him everything, do not hold it back as your backside will suffer. Sir

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  2. Hi Eve I just returned to AZ from Scotland, too hot in AZ in the summer, my partner’s family lives there, so we bought a place for the summers. Still hot here 93 today. Sir 🙂

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