Trouble Tuesday

Why is it so hard to make it through a Tuesday without having one of these conversations with Adam and then getting my butt whipped?? I could not even sleep on my back last night. Adam actually got tears out of me and everything. Not sobbing, uncontrollable crying with snot and tears that won’t stop. But, I couldn’t hold back a few tears that escaped and ran down my face. I had chosen to avoid including Adam in a financial decision I made. I move money around and plan and organize constantly. He honestly does back me almost always when I want to do that. I don’t know why I didn’t say anything to him, except that I just didn’t feel like talking about it that night when I’d made that decision. I was grumpy and hormonal and I said something snarky and went to sleep with my back to Adam. I didn’t quite cross the line with him that night, but it was darned close. Then, yesterday morning, it dawned on me that I was likely getting a guilty conscience before I even realized or accepted that I’d done something wrong. That’s probably why I was so cranky. So, I told him. I laid it all out. He told me that he was most hurt that I’d let him go to sleep thinking he had done something or said something wrong. He went to bed feeling guilty for my upset. Ugh. That made me feel awful. I’ll write tomorrow about what happened after Adam got home last night. Suffice it to say, I have a serious ache in my behind today.