~Shenandoah

It’s such a small thing, but I always smile when we get a letter addressed to Mr. and Mrs. Adam [Last name]. Someone we know is getting married. We got a “save the date”, in the mail. My grandma always addresses our Christmas cards to us that way, too. Adam brought the mail inside, and I saw our wedding invite. That’s such an “old fashioned” way of doing things, but I love it. I love being Mrs. Adam.

Jackie got real sick, last night. She was feeling crummy all day, and then we ate supper. It only aggravated her upset stomach. They believe she had food poisoning. Justin and her had eaten out, Friday night. Justin went to the store, and bought everything he could think of to help her get better. It was very sweet. She’s still trying to recover, today. I feel so sorry for her!

Adam and I sat out on the deck, this morning, enjoying the beautiful day. I talked him into playing a couple games of cornhole, with me. We walked around the backyard, and cleaned up some trash that had blown into our yard. We laughed and had fun, just us. Mj and Wyatt played baseball, for awhile. Then, they jumped on the trampoline, with Oliver.

I’m just having leftover steak, brats, and burgers for supper, tonight. I’m also making some macaroni and cheese. It’s been a really good day, with my family. Jackie is feeling better, but still very tired. She sat out on the deck with us, for awhile, but then she went back downstairs. I’m glad she’s getting better, though. We were going to play ping pong, last night, but Jackie got so sick. We ended up having a quiet night, instead. Next weekend, Adam, the kids, and I are going to visit Adam’s family. The following weekend, we have our guitar night, at Poppy’s house. I’m excited for all of it!

That’s the title to a playlist, on my phone. I’ve got all of our favorite “weekend” songs on it.

The clip was empty…just so everyone knows. I racked it, emptied it, and then played around a little. It was Justin’s 45. I know guns. My dad taught us how to be responsible. I knew there was nothing in the chamber, and it was safe. Just making that clear!

We played cornhole. Grilled burgers, brats, and steaks. Jackie made some squash, in butter and lemon pepper. We’re fixing to go play some ping pong. My dad said they still don’t have power at his place. They got hit even harder, where his house is. Bless all those guys out there still working to get everything from the storm cleaned up. It’s insane all the trees down. Jackie and I drove around, and saw so many downed trees. Im grateful we’re all good.

Last night, we all watched Morgan Wallen’s live concert, from my kitchen. Jackie brought her TV up, and the sound bar, for extra surround sound. It was a lot of fun. He has a lot of great songs. “Tennessee Fan” was a new favorite of ours. MJ’s favorite Morgan Wallen song is, “The Way I Talk”.

Justin and Jackie ran to the store. They got some burgers, brats, and steaks. We’re going to grill those up, later on. It’s a beautiful day. Only in the 60’s, but very sunny, and no wind! We’ll get the cornhole boards out, here soon, too.

Last night, Jackie rolled her eyes at Justin. Adam saw, and he said “That would’ve earned my wife a spanking.” I guess that made me feel the need to get a little mouthy. I made some snarky comments. When we went to bed, later, Adam came over to my side of the bed. He pushed me over the bed, yanked my pants down, and spanked me a few times. I protested, and argued about it. He decided I wasn’t taking him seriously, and pulled me over him. He gave me a very painful, hard smack, on my ass. I am not giving him any attitude, today. We took a shower, this morning. I gave him a blowjob. I asked him if I could roll my eyes today, after we’d finished. He told me NO. It was worth a try, anyhow.

We lost power, this afternoon, for a couple hours. It’s back on, now. That wind was nuts! We were in a tornado warning, for a little while, too. We had several shingles blown off our roof. The trampoline blew into the fence, but seems undamaged. Just glad it’s over.

The sun’s out, now. It’s supposed to be a warm, sunny weekend. We’re going to have a quiet evening. Tomorrow, we’ll get out the cornhole boards, and BBQ something. I’m sitting in the kitchen, with Jackie. We’re listening to Morgan Wallen’s new album. It just dropped. Justin is picking up a few things from the store. Adam should be getting off work in the next hour. I’m planning on a “fend” night, for supper.

That’s pretty much the entire day’s worth of excitement, here!

I don’t usually write on here, this late, but… They just called off school. I expected that to be coming. Now they’ve got our meteorologist telling everybody to have water for people and pets, and to be prepared to have a place in the basement we can go. They’re talking about 92mph winds. I’m getting afraid!

I’m baking some orange sweet rolls, for us to have ready to eat in the morning. Justin is staying here, tonight. He brought his little camp stove, just in case. At least we’ll have coffee!

I just hate knowing it’s fixing to get nasty. It’s exactly 3 years ago, tomorrow, we had the big Nashville tornadoes. We had no power for 6 days, at our house. It was a mess. If I don’t write for awhile, it probably got bad here. Hopefully, I’ll be able to get on tomorrow, and report all good things. I’m not counting on it, but I’m praying for it!

Well, that’s just great… Don’t look like we’ll be doing much of anything outside, tomorrow. Gosh, I hope we don’t lose power!! They’re saying to expect them. Ughhhhhhh

Every Monday, we complain the weekend went too fast. It feels like we blink, and we’re saying, tomorrow’s Friday again, though! Jackie and I were just talking about that. Can’t believe it’s almost another weekend!

That big ol’ bruised thumb there, is from attempting to block Adam’s hand from connecting with my behind, last night. Not wise. I know better. He had held my arms out of the way, and swatted me a few times. We were just getting ready to take our shower, and after he’d spanked me, I was kind of ignoring him. He said something to me, and my response was snarky. He spun me around, to face him, and knowing what was coming, I threw my hand behind me. My finger is fine, just swollen and bruised.

I had text Adam, yesterday evening, shortly before he got home from work. I had to find out what was coming.

We had supper, and a normal evening. When Adam told me he was ready to go take a shower, I figured that’s when I’d be answering to him. I figured right. If I would’ve kept my mouth shut, and then, if I hadn’t have reached my hand back, I’d be perfectly fine. He really wasn’t grumpy with me. It just took me a little too long to let go of my own attitude…

Adam’s had a good week. He’s getting a pretty big award, for his work. I’m very proud of him!

It’s cooler, today. Only mid 60s, and mostly been cloudy. It stormed, last night. We got lots of thunder and lightning. It rained hard, for awhile.

I haven’t gotten a whole lot done, today. I baked some chocolate chip cookies, yesterday. Haven’t baked anything today, though. I put on some cute jeans, that make my butt look good. I did my hair and makeup. I’ve done all my regular chores. Pick up the house, make the beds, clean the kitchen. I’m making the tater tot casserole for supper, tonight.

It was Oliver’s second birthday, yesterday! He got some extra treats, a lot of love and games of tug of war with us, plus Mj and I took the dogs for an over 2 mile walk. Oliver has his appointment to get fixed, coming up. After many conversations with our vet, we’d decided to wait on that. For bigger dogs, it can be better for them, to let them finish growing, before getting them neutered. Studies suggest that it helps with their bones and joint health. He’s 2 now, so it’s time to get it done. I already got him a soft cone, kind of like a neck pillow, because he would go crazy if he had to wear one of those big ol’ “cones of shame”.

Justin waited in line, this morning, for almost 4 hours. He was trying to get us all tickets to Morgan Wallen’s impromptu concert, tomorrow night. He was SO close, too!! They ran out of tickets, just before he got up there. It was so sweet of him to try that hard for us, though!

After tomorrow, the kids are on Spring Break, for a whole week. Justin, Jackie, Adam, and I are planning to play some cornhole, this weekend. We’re deciding what we all want to BBQ. The kids voted for chicken. I’m good with whatever. Anything Adam grills is delicious!

That’s about all I know, for today.

They did an echocardiogram, and met with the specialist. Pj is GREAT! That makes me sooo happy! I just wanted to let all my readers who’ve been following along know, we got some great news, today ❤️

Yesterday evening, Justin came over and hung out with us. Jackie got the flowers he had ordered for her. They’re beautiful!

We had a great time, just sitting around, talking about everything and nothing, at the same time. Jackie and I wanted to stay up, a little bit longer, so she asked Justin to keep Adam entertained.

We went to bed, around 10:30pm. Adam was tired, but I still got laid. As we were laying in bed, I rolled my eyes, after Adam had said something. He caught me. We’d just been teasing and laughing, seconds earlier. I didn’t like how serious, and grumpy he got. Then, he accused me of doing it again. But, I hadn’t, that time! He said, “That’s two.” It made me mad, so I said, “Fine, then I’m gonna do it again”, and I looked right at him, glared, and rolled my eyes. He said, “That’s three”. That’s when I really lost my shit. I told him, “Ya know what? Fine. Fuck it…Fuck it. Fuck off. And, fuck you.” That’s when Adam informed me that tomorrow, when he gets home, he’s going to give me a spanking. He was calm, but I was frustrated. I said, “Whatever”. He said, “You say that tonight, but about 2:00 tomorrow afternoon, I’m going to get a text from you asking questions, trying to figure out if you’re still in trouble.”

Dammit if he wasn’t right… It’s not 2:00 yet, but I’m wondering whether he was serious serious, or maybe he forgot? Should I say anything? Should I just keep quiet, since he’s expecting me to be questioning him, now? I was in such a good mood, yesterday! It was just something about Adam’s smug tone of voice, that set me off. We’d gone from joking around, to serious, in seconds. There are plenty of times, when I know and accept that I’ve screwed up. Last night, I didn’t feel like I deserved to be in trouble. Well, not until I really went off the rails, and told him exactly what I thought, and where he could go. That crossed the line. I do accept that much. I regret the way I handled myself. If I’d have just calmly spoken to him, and told him what was frustrating me, that would’ve made a world of difference. I have done a much better job of containing my attitude, when my brain wants to go full bitch mode. I didn’t do so good, last night, though.

I felt Adam give me a kiss, before he left. He’s replied to my texts, and seems fine. I haven’t brought up what happened, last night.

It’s another beautiful day, here. Sunny, and around 80 degrees. I’ve got our bedding hanging out to dry, on the deck. Another neighbor was outside cutting his grass, so the whole house smells like fresh cut grass and clean laundry. They’re calling for thunderstorms, later this evening. I’m going to take the dogs on another walk, after Jackie’s lunch break. I like to sit on the deck, and eat lunch with her.

My sister, her husband, and baby Pj are on their way to Vanderbilt children’s. Pj is going to see the pediatric cardiologist specialist, today. I’m really anxious to find out what he has to say!

“The longer I live, the more I believe, you do have to give if you want to receive. There’s a time to listen, and a time to talk. And, you might have to crawl, even after you walk. Had sure things blow up in my face. Seen the long shot win the race. Been knocked down by the slamming’ door. Picked myself up and came back for more. Life’s a dance. You learn as you go. Sometimes you lead. Sometimes you follow. Don’t worry ‘bout what you don’t know. Life’s a dance. You learn as you go.”

~John Michael Montgomery

I often tell Adam, I can’t know what I don’t know. I suppose that’s how I’ve lived, all my life. People tell me, I always insist on learning things “the hard way”. I know I’m prone to taking chances. I’m careful about things I’ve learned better about. I’m responsible with money. I don’t ever put my children at risk. For myself, I can be kind of a risk taker. There’s this need to know, what if, that speaks so loudly to me. I need to find out, for myself. It’s like I’ve fallen so many times, I’m not particularly afraid of it anymore. I’m not sure whether it’s stupidity, courage, or maybe a mixture? I guess, it’s just who I am.

While there have been a series of unfortunate events, and people, who’ve failed me horribly, I mostly have been blessed to have people I know will be there, if I fall. If I make a mistake, there are people who I can count on. They will help me back up, onto my feet. Of course, I’d do the same for them! I love “my people” fiercely.

I automatically give “ my people” the benefit of doubt, until there’s irrefutable evidence to the contrary. I might view the rest of the world through skeptical eyes, but not “my people”. I pretty much expect the world is lying to me. Not “my people”, though. That can be devastating to me, when that deep trust gets broken. Despite being beaten down before, I always have faith in the people I love. It isn’t a half faith, either. It’s all in. This might be the risky side of me? It’s how I operate. If you’re in my circle, you’ve got my utmost trust. When that’s been tested, even in small ways, it shakes me. It’s hard for me to ever believe anyone I love would lie to me.

I’m not anywhere near perfect. I have told “half truths”. I do, what Adam calls, “sidestep”, sometimes. I always tell on myself, though. I can’t stand knowing I haven’t told the entire truth to someone I love. I’m not a liar. I absolutely can’t do that. I’ve lived this out for so long, “my people” always trust what I tell them. Having their trust is what keeps me honest. I won’t betray it. I’m a horrible liar. Even when it’s a silly thing, like a surprise, my ears turn beat red if I have to tell a fib, to keep the surprise a secret. So long as nobody specifically asks me about it, I can keep quiet. If I’m questioned, though, it’s game over.

Justin ordered flowers, for Jackie. He text me, and asked me to keep an eye out for them. I haven’t said a word about that surprise, to Jackie!

I’ve been paying my sister’s mobile phone bill, for almost 3 years, now. I finally gathered the courage to tell her, she’s going to have to do her own thing. She’s married. I really shouldn’t have to feel responsible for her bills. When our mother disappeared, my sister had been on her phone plan. When that got cut off, I invited her to get on mine. She was supposed to pay for her part of the bill, but it never happened. I’ve spent over $3,000 paying for her iPhone and Apple Watch bills. I told her, I’ll pay off what’s left of her iPhone, so she can keep it. She can take it and do whatever she wants with it. I can get a new phone, a new watch, and still spend less than I’ve been paying for hers and mine together. That was hard for me to do, though. I love my sister. I feel a responsibility toward her, beings I’m the “older”, sister. Adam never complained about her being under my phone plan, but I think it’s past time to give her the opportunity to “adult”, for herself. I love her to death, but it isn’t fair for Adam and I to be taking care of my married, grown sister’s bills. Even though I know all of these things I’m saying are true, I still felt guilty and nervous to tell her. She took it better than I’d worried she might. Thank goodness!

I think I’m going to go take the dogs for a walk, now that I’ve got all my “to do’s” checked off the list. It’s gorgeous, today! 72 degrees, sunny, and zero wind blowing. We heard someone cutting their grass, awhile ago. We also noticed our neighbor’s AC cut on, while Jackie and I sat on the deck, during her lunch break. I think it feels perfect. Lots of windows open, and the house is just right.